MAKING FROM MY TRUE DESIRES AN UNIQUE PASSIONATED PROJECT

Posted on 8 november 2025

PHASE 5: STARTING WITH SERVICES AND SEARCHING INVESTORS.

2025 was an real crazy journey. In September 2026 I will update my website on multiple pages. Because it is outdated. First off. I want to make asap an adult section. Because I proudly can say I am ready for F2F, delivering services as an escort. I have 4 private drivers, 5000+ invested in a marketing agency/office. You will find my adds in adult magazines. I will revamp this website with multiple videos/photos. But now I just want to give 3 updates.

FOR MY CLIENTS: DAY AND NIGHT AVAILABLE.

MESSAGE ME(Ja, ik spreek uiteraard ook Nederlands). I don’t receive your voicemails. You will receive an automatic message. Follow the instructions and I contact you asap😘.

FOR MY FANS/PERVERTS/FOLLOWERS: I WILL MAKE 24/7 CONTENT IN 2026. 400+ PHOTOS, 70 VIDEOS ARE READY TO SHARE.

You can watch already 38 posts to have a glimpse. I will start soon with this. I prepped me 2-3 years for this. Together with my future partner in crime we will thrive to the top, will own the red carpets, put the world upside down with never seen before content. But first we start slow. With amateur. Later with high quality. As the ultimate goal I will become the first real porn producer of GHENT. But that is for 2027 at earliest.

CLICK HERE: https://f2f.com/s/qRhTd_ OR JUST TYPE MGC7

FOR SPONSORS/INVESTORS/HIGH VALUE PEOPLE/COLLABS

MY NEXT GEN BUSINESS CARD IS HEAVILY UPDATED. YOU CAN’T ACCESS MY PRIVATE SERVER. ONLY BY MEETING ME. THIS WILL GIVE YOU DIRECT ALL MY LINKS, MORE PRIVATE INFO. IT’S MENT FOR NETWORKING NEXT LEVEL AFTER BEING UNDER THE RADAR FOR 11+ YEARS.

This project is super huge. I became the kingpin of redlight district GHENT. After 2-3 years cleaning this street and studying this street I knew how to change it forever. Go to my hidden Instagram account: MICHAELGENTCITY7BACKUP FOR THE IN-DEPTH STORY. This project will benefit everyone. I got sabotaged left and right by criminals. Because once we pull this off. Their business is over and out. Redlight district will become high quality. High value people will gather in my private crib that will become legendary next level. Invest now. And benefit later. Because this project is about millions. I myself I am a sex worker, highly and deadly trained, want to shoot porn and offer all the girls protection/safety, and a way better income. With producing porn this will change everyone their life forever. Don’t forget I am known for helping people. And known for being an artistic genius. I shared 20k to the poor. Withstood countless challenges. Trained for the Belgian special forces in mind. And was always hypersexual. The only person that can pull this off. Is literally me. It took threats, blood, sweat, countless late nights to clean this street once and for all. I literally became the safety. But it was al planned for a bigger vision in mind. I need 12000 euro under 60 days. Because of all the sabotages. That being said I made and spend already 500K in value. In 2028 this world is not ready for me. Because then all my projects will launch. Including this website. Sex was always a passion of me. Sport. Nightlife and sex. Was my cocktail to live life. I was always anonymous/low profile and yet I am already notorious in Ghent. I became a damn brand!WANT AN EXTRA LAYER ABOUT THIS CRAZY JOURNEY? READ MY MEMOIRE BENEATH AND LISTEN TO THIS INSANE STORY THAT I SHOT. RAW, HONEST, HARD, NEXT LEVEL👁️

PHASE 4: FINE TUNING THE PROJECT.

In phase 1 you can read my journey with girls. My desires, kinks. Connection to redlight district and the porn industry. A very nice read. In phase 2 I started to write out my true desires. Manifested a partner in crime for the future. In phase 3 I revealed a whole project about whole this passion that kept evolving. And now here in phase 4 I will tell about all layers from phase 1,2,3 that were a foundation of phase 4. Michaelgentcity productions is a project that will take years. That always will evolve. It’s a placeholder name for an unknown project. Already since 2014-2015 I was unconsciously building this desire to build an BDSM studio. I bought for an example already bdsm gear for the future, had always an active sex lifestyle, was into bdsm, and go so on. But those 10 years in my never give up journey i was always focused on being a leader, on creating a portfolio, on challenge x. But in reality I always dreamed of something bigger. But I first needed the location and time for it. And so here we are.

In this section i will tell you why the passion evolved to an BDSM lifestyle, and so much more. I always thought about casting girls. Etc. But later I discovered that my direction would be BDSM oriented instead of just vanilla sex. Trough all previous experiences I discovered my true kinks and desires. And then I knew what for a partner really would fit my lifestyle. A mistress, an dominatrix, content creation. Was now the focus. Still the same project. Just a more clear vision. It is just the start of something very huge. I will write in detail about the transition from being hetero to becoming bisexual. From always being a leader to becoming a professional bdsm slave. I met a lot of open minded people trough this journey. And daily I discover new people that will join this project of me. The transition to becoming a sex worker was also easy thanks to them. Every day I learn new things. And trust me 10 years ago i probably never would have thought about this. But deep inside I was always fascinated about this lifestyle. And here are some words why it is now in 2025. That I really pulled the trigger to this new exciting journey.

“Always fascinated by a bdsm slave? 10 years of doing and achieving massively in my life. I live by challenge. I always was the leader. Went through life up to 144 hours a week of activity. Never sat still.

It seems refreshing to have someone who disciplines me, pains me, humiliates me in numerous forms. Both psychologically and physically. To be helpless. To be owned. No longer to go through life continuously 999 an hour.

It is the psychology and tension of dominance and sensuality that can make it just so seductive. Sex is just sex. Whereas in bdsm everything can be very sensual. Licking feet, sucking, kneeling, listening, the ignorance of control. The so many fetishes and unpredictability. Especially losing control and daring to surrender is also something very intimate if you ask me.”

Translated with DeepL.com

So this is the outcome after years of experience, experimenting. Every phase has a big meaning. And is actually a layer on its own. It’s worth reading for future partners, collabs, investors, sponsors. But also for people that want to understand the journey. This project is massive. And I am closer then ever to the vision. Next to that it is a proof to my clients that I do this with passion. That there is a big journey of research, experimentation, trial and error before I pulled the trigger to this project and desires. So I can’t wait to satisfy client x or mistress x. Everyone is welcome. And maybe you never will believe it. But yes I really love to serve as your bisexual cumslut. All those experiences made me who I am. And this is really my true destiny. I really live for this. I see myself as an healer and charity. I can boost others their moral, share my knowledge and ideas. Can literally uplift others. And at the same time I can just love what I do the most. Sex in all kinds of ways. Without taboo. At the same time I can use all that knowledge and experience to train other slaves as a dominant. Because that is the thing. I am a switch. I am very dominant by nature. But because of my adhd and discipline I also can be super submissive. And that is something very unique. Because I am always extreme in everything. I literally have almost no limits. I just love to challenge me. And for me it is just so refreshing as above mentioned.

NEVER GIVE UP

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PHASE 3: HOW IT EVOLVED TO AN PROJECT. BRAINSTORMING AND PLANNING, EXECUTION AND EXPERIMENTING

INTRODUCING MY MOST INSANE AND PASSIONATED PROJECT: MICHAELGENTCITY PRODUCTIONS. BELOW YOU CAN READ MY CHARACTER AND MEMOIRES OF MY TRIAL AND ERROR/PAST/ETC.

HEADS UP👁[MICHAELGENTCITY7]

This screenshot right here is my most advanced technology that I have to connect next level. I was the past 10 years low profile for multiple reasons. I still rather to stay anonymous because I need laser sharp focus. In theory millions of people witnessed my energy already in nightlife or in the gym. Or in challenge x. But I never shared my vision and plans. Never my socials. Anyways. I don’t know when I will use this next gen card. But I definitely need my partner in crime, same like minded people, sponsors or whatever. This card will give me people in no time. But I need quality and not quantity. This vision is freaking epic. But insane at the same time. I always love to challenge myself you know. It would be epic if people gift the tools that I need. Or share knowledge and ideas. Or to find sponsors. People that want to boost me up. I always shared to others you know. I knew that karma will strike triple hard one day. I created already an sponsor me page. An Amazon wishlist etc. Because damn. Everyone will benefit from it in the long run. This house can become super legendary. Anyways. If you are intrigued by this passionated project or my life in general then feel free to [ghost] follow me on my Instagram account. In 2022 I had way too much exposure. Over 250 000 monthly views/40 000 unique ghost followers because of my nightlife marathon 2.00 challenge. I never shared this website or my socials. Not even an hashtag. But boy I know how to use marketing. 2028 I said 👁

NEVER GIVE UP☯️👊👁

SINCE SUMMER 2021 I STARTED TO CRAVE FOR AN NEW CHALLENGE. IN SUMMER 2022 I STARTED WITH THIS PROJECT. I WAS STRESSED OUT, LIVING BETWEEN MICE AND RATS DUE CONSTRUCTION SITE VIBES. I NEEDED TO MOVE OUT IN AN BLAZING FAST SPEED. BUT I TOLD MYSELF THAT MY NEXT CHAPTER WILL START IN REDLIGHT DISTRICT.

I FOUND THE LOCATION. HAD ALOT OF PRESSURE AND SETBACKS BUT NOW IN 2025 MY VISION STARTS TO BECOME AN REALITY. THIS VISION WAS INSPIRED BY DENNIS BLACK MAGIC, ZILLION, MY OWN LIFE EXPERIENCE. AND SO MUCH MORE.

IT WAS INSANE TO PULL THIS OFF. AND I DON’T KNOW YET HOW TO PULL EVERYTHING OFF. SO I WILL START SLOW STEP BY STEP.

ANYWAYS WHAT IS MICHAELGENTCITY PRODUCTIONS??? IN 2023 I WROTE AN 8 PAGE BIO. BUT I DIDN’T KNOW YET WHAT TO EXPECT. I SPEND 1000’S OF HOURS IN VISUALISATION. HAD ALOT OF LATE NIGHTS. BREAKING MY HEAD WITH THIS VISION…

MICHAELGENTCITY WILL BE AN KNOWN BRAND WORLDWIDE ONCE I CAN LAUNCH MY BOOKS, START TO MARKET THIS WEBSITE ETC.

MY LIFE IS AN DAMN MOVIE. AND I ALWAYS NEED SOMETHING NEW. OR SOMETHING CHALLENGING. TO KEEP ME ENTERTAINED IN THIS BORING AS WORLD.

WITH MICHAELGENTCITY PRODUCTIONS I FOCUS ON EVERYTHING ABOUT 18+ CONTENT. BUT ALSO ON OTHER THINGS. IT CAN GO WAY FURTHER.

ANYWAYS THE MAIN FOCUS WAS TO CREATE AN EPIC BDSM/SEX ROOM. AN CONTENT ROOM. THAT LATER ACTUALLY EVOLVED IN SOMETHING INSANE. WHOLE MY CRIB IS SUPER INSANE. 2025 IS JUST THE START OF MAKING THIS VISION AN REALITY. THERE GOES ALOT OF MONEY AND ENERGY IN THIS. AND MOST OF ALL COUNTLESS PASSION. THIS PROJECT KEEPS ME DAY AND NIGHT AWAKE.

2033 IS THE DEADLINE TO BUILD MY DREAM VISION WHAT I HAD IN MIND

WITH MICHAELGENTCITY PRODUCTIONS I HAVE THE FOLLOWING IDEAS:

I AM SEARCHING AN PARTNER IN CRIME THAT PAYS 1200 MONTHLY FOR THE BILLS, ETC. SHE NEEDS TO BE IN THE 18+ INDUSTRY. AN OF GIRL, PORN ACTRESS OR WHORE….

THERE MUST BE AN CLICK BETWEEN US. SO I TAKE MY TIME FOR FINDING THE RIGHT PARTNER IN CRIME.

SHE NEEDS TO BE OPEN MINDED. NEEDS TO BE AN CUMSLUT. OR AT LEAST OPEN TO THE PERVERSE.

WHY? BECAUSE I SPEND AN INSANE AMOUNT OF MONEY IN THIS VISION. AND I LITERALLY CAN MAKE MILLIONS IN YEAR X. I AM NOT MONOGAMOUS AT ALL. I NEED CHAOS. LOVE IS ABNORMAL TO ME. STILL WE SHARE THE BED ETC.

NEXT TO THAT I AM CREATING THE MOST AWESOME CRIB YOU CAN IMAGINE. THERE WILL COME AN JACUZZI, PROFFESIONAL BDSM CAGES/FURNITURE, PROFESSIONAL STUDIO LIGHT, PROFESSIONAL STUDIO GEAR: CAMERA’S, MACSTUDIO, ETC. 15000+EUROS OF DECORATION FOR THE ULTIMATE VIBE. AN PRIVATE GYM. AN PRIVATE DISCO/CLUB 2.00(trust me I have an insane amount of visualisation in this section already alone🤦‍♀️)

IN APRIL 2025 I ACTUALLY CAN START ALREADY WITH CREATING AMATEUR PORN PRIVATELY. AS AN EXPERIMENT. THE GOAL IS TO BECOME THE FIRST REAL PORN PRODUCER OF GHENT. BECAUSE I HAVE AN BIG BACKGROUND WITH REDLIGHT DISTRICT EVERYTHING FITS SO NATURALLY.

I STILL HAVE ALOT OF WORK TO DO. CURRENTLY ALOT OF HAMMERING. AND I ACTUALLY NEED TO STILL BUY THE HOUSE. THAT’S HOW CRAZY THIS VISION IS. BUT THAT BEING SAID. MY LANDLORD LOVES ME. AND KNOWS HOW CRAZY AND CREATIVE I AM.

BUT THAT IS NOT ALL! ALL GIRLS/SLUTS/EVEN REAL WHORES OF GHENT ARE WELCOME FOR AN CASTING OR PRIVATE VIDEO IDEAS. CONTENT COLLABS. THE LIST GOES ON AND ON. NEXT TO THAT I AM FRIENDS WITH THE BIGGEST PORN PRODUCER OF THE NETHERLANDS

HE WAS JUST LIKE ME BORN WITH THE WHORES. BUT HE WAS ALSO WORKING VERY HARD TO GET WHERE HE NOW IS. HE STARTED DOING THE LOW PAY JOBS TILL HE BECAME AN ACTOR FOR “MEIDEN VAN HOLLAND/VURIG VLAANDEREN”. LATER HE MADE THE TRANSITION TO CAMERA MAN. HE MADE COUNTLESS VIDEOS FOR THE BIGGEST BRANDS OF THE BENELUX. MADE SOME VIDEOS THAT WENT VIRAL. AND NOT SO LONG AGO HE QUIT THOSE BRANDS TO START HIS OWN STUDIO PERVECT THAT ALREADY GOT NOMINATED AS BEST EMERGING NEW BRAND. DAILY I AM WITH HIM IN CONTACT. WE SHARE AN PERSONAL SAME VIBE. HE IS A LITTLE BIT A FATHER TO ME LET’S JUST SAY.

I WAS ALWAYS BUSY. AND NEVER HAD THE TIME TO GO FOR THE CAMERA. IN 2025 I WILL GO WITH TRIAL AND ERROR TO WEEKLY OR MONTHLY [RECORDED] GANG BANGS. I HAVE ALOT OF EXPERIENCE. BUT I QUICKLY GET DISTRACTED. THAT IS WHY I WANTED TO CREATE MY OWN SAFE ENVIRONMENT.

I FIRST SHARED AN WHOPPING 19000 EUROS TO OTHERS BEFORE I EVEN INVEST IN MYSELF. SCHARING IS CARING IS THE THING THAT I ALWAYS SAID. NOW IT IS TIME FOR MY NEW CHAPTER AFTER MY 10 YEARS LEGENDARY, INSPIRING AND INDESCRIBABLY NEVER GIVE UP JOURNEY.

SO WHAT WILL I OFFER?

AN PRIVATE CRIB/CLUB WITH VIP ENTERANCE ONLY IN YEAR X: DISCOROOM 2.00, ACCES FOR WATCHING BEHIND THE SCENES PORN SHOOTS LIVE IN ACTION, AN PROJECTOR ROOM, AN HIGH QUALITY BDSM ROOM, AN JACUZZI, AN BAR TO RELAX AND CHAT. THIS VIP MEMBERSHIP WAS INSPIRED BY DENNIS BLACK MAGIC. HE KNEW HOW TO MARKET. AND TO MAKE FROM EVERYTHING AN BUSINESS. I SPEND ALOT OF MONEY IN THIS INSANE PROJECT OF ME. AND I PROBABLY WILL MAKE ALOT OF MONEY ONCE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT. LATER I WILL PARTNER UP WITH OTHER BRANDS SO THAT YOU CAN EVEN RECEIVE DISCOUNT BY THEM OR VIP EXPERIENCES TROUGH MY EXCLUSIVE VIP MEMBERSHIP CARDS.

THE FIRST YEARS I WANT TO EXPERIMENT PRIVATELY. BUT I PROBABLY WILL SHOOT ALREADY AMATEUR PORN WITH AN PROFESSIONAL CAM CORDER FROM 3000+ EUROS. ALL IN 1080P. BECAUSE MOST PEOPLE WATCH 1080P. IT IS WAY CHEAPER AND WAY EASIER TO MANAGE THE EDITING. WITH 4K I WOULD DIRECTLY NEED AN POWERFUL MAC. THIS WILL AL COME LATER. I JUST WANT TO START SLOW. AND BUILD YEAR BY YEAR ON THE VISION WITH BETTER GEAR.

I JUST NEED TO START THE MARKETING 👁 I NEVER EVER SHARED MY SOCIAL CHANNELS OR EVEN THIS WEBSITE OF ME. WHICH ALREADY HAS 800 HOURS OF WORK BY THE WAY☠️. AND STILL I AM PREPARED TO CONNECT/NETWORK IN NO TIME. THANKS TO AN NEXT GEN BUSINESS CARD THAT WILL DO THE MAGIC FOR ME. ALL ADULT CHANNELS ARE EVEN READY. THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT I WILL USE THEM. BUT YOU KNOW. THERE WILL COME ALOT OF TRAFFIC TO MY PHONE ONCE PEOPLE DISCOVER THIS INSANE PROJECT OF ME.

I SHARED ALREADY MY PLANS TO PEOPLE IN THE INDUSTRY BEHIND CLOSED DOORS. IT’S WAY TOO EARLY TO SHARE EVERY PLAN AND DETAIL. I JUST WANTED TO GIVE AN LIGHT/TEASE UPDATE ON MY WEBSITE TO FIND THE RIGHT PARTNER IN CRIME.

BY THE WAY: BECAUSE OF MY STATUS AND BACKGROUND I AM ALSO AVAILABLE TO GIVE PROTECTION TO GIRLS FROM REDLIGHT DISTRICT. THEY ARE EVEN WELCOME IN MY CRIB IF THEY FEEL NOT SAFE OR THREATENED. OR IF THEY NEED AN ROOM/HOUSE TO DO THEIR WORK BETTER. ALOT OF THESE GIRLS BECOME VICTIM OF PIMPS, NEED TO SLEEP IN HOTELS, ETC. I DON’T KNOW HOW I SHOULD DESCRIBE MYSELF THEN: I ONLY WANT MONTHLY 1200 FOR THE COSTS/BILLS. AND SEX I GUESS. NOT THEIR MONEY. (If they need household/an roof. Want to live here for an couple of months. Because then I need to change my social status and legalise everything. Plus this is for me extra pressure. Because violence or revenge is always possible if they got followed by person x…)

THIS IS THE REDLINE BETWEEN AN PIMP AND NON PIMP. I KNOW. BUT TRUST ME. I AM NOT STUPID BORN. EVERYONE CAN READ THIS. INCLUDING COPS. I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE YOU KNOW. I JUST WANT TO DO SOMETHING FOR THIS STREET. SHINE AN LIGHT IN THIS STREET.

THE MORE CHALLENGING PROJECTS ARE ACTUALLY PRIVATE SEX PARTIES WITH INCOME FEE. IF I START TO MAKE MONEY. THEN I WILL MAKE FOR SURE THAT EVERYTHING IS REGISTERED AND LEGAL. BECAUSE I DO THIS CHALLENGE/PROJECT BECAUSE OF PASSION YOU KNOW.

IN FACT: I EVEN MYSELF WILL ALSO OFFER GIGOLO SERVICE TO WOMEN OF MAX 45 YEARS OLD. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I ALSO WILL DO CASTINGS…. SO I AM STILL FIGURING OUT WHAT TO DO.

ALL I KNOW IS THAT I DO EVERYTHING WITH PASSION. THAT I LOVE GIRLS. THAT IT TOOK AN INSANE AMOUNT OF RESEARCH, ENERGY, VISUALISATION TO MAKE THIS DREAM PROJECT AN REALITY.

I EVEN TESTED ALREADY WITH SOME ADDS. AND MY GOD. THE TRAFFIC WAS INSANE. SO I KNOW THAT I JUST NEED PATIENCE, THE RIGHT TIMING. AND ALL THE REST WILL COME BY ITSELF.

NEVER GIVE UP☯️👊👁

PHASE 2: THE MANIFESTATION OF AN PARTNER IN CRIME

A SPECIAL PASSION WITH AN BURNING DESIRED VISION IN MY MIND: INTRO

I HAVE ALREADY CONNECTIONS IN THE PORN INDUSTRY. GOT MULTIPLE TIMES ASKED TO PARTICIPATE IN AN MOVIE.

PHASE 1: HOW IT STARTED– ME AND GIRLS. WHY I JUST NEED THAT EXTRA SPARK.

THE STORY HOW I GOT IN THE PORN INDUSTRY, BECAME FRIENDS4LIFE WITH AN AWESOME GIRL. AND HOW I BECAME REDLIGHT DISTRICT FAMOUS AFTER EXPERIENCING AN SOCIAL PHOBIA AND SEXUAL TRAUMA….[AN INSANE BUT EPIC JOURNEY]

I went on an casting completely in rush. I was too tired. I realized it was not the right moment. I was mad and disappointed after that fuck up. I couldn’t believe it in the first place. I directly went the next day to an hooker to release my disappointment feelings. To energize me again. Sure I had erection disorders due sexual trauma. And due seeing girls forced in prostitution. Due getting faced with an girl as a prostitute that turned out to be younger then 18. 16 wtf! I directly canceled it and reported it to the police. Also some girls begged me to help them. They were under fear. The police was scared of these gangs. And I thought to play the hero by going on my own to set her free🤦🏼‍♂️. Result: an psycho pimp behind me. Me with an broken heart that I could do nothing. Next to that 2015 was just an insane moment. My first girlfriend experience was really not the best to say at least. She had multiple personality disorders, a lot of shit and threats, delusions. I played psychologist 2 months for her because I felt for the first time love with an non hooker. Because my first love was actually with an hooker. I learned that sex can trigger endorphins/emotions/love etc, the hard way. Anyways, where was I… Right. That girl of me. Well we had public sex, she was slutty, horny, we had both interest in bdsm and the whole kamasutra. So it was all worth it next to the negatives I thought. I mean September 2014- 2015 was probably the most stressful period in whole my life. So I really could use a fuck. I ignored 200+ woman who had interest in me. Was always focused. But in may 2015 somebody gave my number without permission of me to her. And that is how it started. We were both horny, hyper sexual, nymphomaniac. But after a few weeks I knew it would be nothing more then just an fuckbuddy. But still I attached me too much in her personal situation. She fucked up my mind. And I had enough from women. The heck even escorts. I couldn’t stand the pain, was confused, mad, exhausted, etc. I only could figure out that later. Even the police needed to stop her obsessive stalking. She would create other accounts or cell phone numbers. Would try to excuse her. But I had enough of it. And didn’t accept it. So the police was the only way that she would take some space of me. Because she was just lost in her mind. That time period I learned another different side of girlfriends. Wtf. I wanted this. But I was not ready for such an mental mindfuck I guess. I lost my virginity by an escort, learned everything there, went already one year to the escorts. Still I never searched or chased for an girlfriend and then this. It was just insanity. There were times that she was just waving with an huge kitchen knife in front of me, in trance and anger. Just one of her so many panic attacks/blackouts. Plus she had no limits. And I needed focus. So yeah. My erection was over and out. I had enough of women. I thought love will never exist in my life after this crazy period.

It took me 2-3 years time to finally go back to hookers/escorts. Everybody has the right to fuck I thought. And I don’t need to think that it is always like that. I was traumatized. I thought that a girl suddenly would go in panic attack or fuck me without condoms and suddenly having a baby. Let’s just say. It took another full year. So I went one year to hookers just too see them naked. For an emotional bound, etc. The first time that I saw an escort again was an insane moment. She touched me. Just my cheeck. And after 2-3 years no sex, no warmth, no love, I started to cry it out. Couldn’t move, my mind had so many flashbacks. We immediately needed to stop the session. She said. “Wow, I never experienced this. I think it is better to stop this session. And take some rest”

I came back 1 hour later. Because now I felt even more psychologically broken. I thought I never will experience sex anymore. So I thought to get over my fear/trauma. The second hooker said to slow down. Teached me. I thought wtf. I fucked already 25+ girls. What is happening.

Anyways. She said to me. I need to masturbate a lot, need to come at least 1 time in 2-3 months. Not 3 years anymore. I went 4-5 times more to discover I still had no erection due trauma. We talked instead. It was like a therapy thing. Suddenly I had an erection again. Could cum shot. But not more then that. Then I went to my doctor for advice. I said this is not normal anymore I want to get over this by positive sessions to forget the sexual trauma. He prescribed me viagra. Well actually an modern version.

Less side effects. Still very effective. After taking this everything went much faster in process. “Wow, you have a huge dick”. Said the hooker that always saw my traumatized dick. Now it was fully erect. Play time. After x counts of blowjob sessions it was obviously that everything was just an psychological factor. I actually became good, very good, vip. So to skip whole this story. I fucked 100+ different girls. Had amazing sex, golden showers, 69’s, doggy, cowgirl, tongue kissing etc. You get the point.

The tongue kissing was actually an important part to me. Same as kissing. Same as being horny. Same as getting good blow Jobs, same as 69. Well. To give you the picture. I all needed these things next to an emotional bound. They couldn’t understand why I never chased for an girlfriend. They said I have the toolset, massive cum shots(like for real), can fuck very long and hard if it is erect. And I am just an nice looking guy. Still a crazy strange one. But a lot of girls will like me. That is what they said. Yeah. What could I say. I was not ready for an girlfriend. And thought hookers is the way to go. Actually I created with some deeper bounds. And some actually even wanted to fuck me if I still didn’t chase a girlfriend after my 30 years age. Ahahaha. It was madness, awesome, dirty. I learned everything with trial and error. Sometimes even the hard way. Hygiene on the dick. Always wash your dick!, cut your hair on the balls. It is not cool to taste hair. And not safe to suck an unhygienic dick. Same for nails. Cut those nails. If you do that women love to invite you. Because they see that you care about health and about them. Every girl knows what this means. He loves to finger girls! And my god yes it is true. I really liked that. I had so much vibrations and speed in my strong fingers that they asked for not too long or they needed to pee or squirt. And that is extra money Ahahaha. Well, some even cummed just by sucking their nipples, whispering in their ears, touching their sensitive parts, and playing with their clit. I never will forget that one even cummed in just 10 minutes of 69. I had the right spot with my tongue. And boom. Well, 69. I just love to lick. I did it for 30 minutes or even longer in some sessions. Like foreplay was for me very important. It turned also out that I just need to calm down my mind. Another thing that I learned there. It took a period to come zen. Because sometimes I was fucking and suddenly thought about my next appointment, the groceries, or an random funny moment. Ahahaha and then me loud up. Omg… and the girl like confused. See. I learned this all. I mastered it. It was an long way. And epic way. I can write an damn book about all my sex adventures, failures, etc.

So I thought it was time to go next level. Make from your passion your job. Boom suddenly I contacted Elise van Vlaanderen. Well. Actually I contacted her. Because I had an dream scenario. I wrote my own porn script/fantasy for me and an hooker. She could let it happen for x money. So that was not the way to go. Still she invited me to an casting. Everything was new to me. I had an waterfall of thoughts. Now I had a camera, dicks from other participants, etc. Next to me. I fucked so many girls. Blogged/vlogged countless times. But even viagra didn’t do the job. I was so mad. And it was just an amazing super slut for my adhd mind. She mooned so nice. She was hot. Special/horny/awesome. She was my dream girlfriend!

Like wtf. I went to an casting. Failed due so many new things. And suddenly I had an best FRIEND4LIFE. Yup, we became best FRIENDS4LIFE. First we just chatted day and night. I thought she would hate it. But nope. She could handle my ADHD. That spark in her eyes. Told everything. We were made for each other. We had the same interests. She had so many awesome talents next to sex. She was just awesome. I felt in love. On that moment she was still dating and doing porn shoots. She actually hooked up with another guy. They had an open relationship. But one day she accidentally revealed her real name because of sending an transaction screenshot. We both were confused. Euh Lina. Do you think what I think…. Oh shit. Yup, now I started to know her in and out. We had no secrets. She shared every story of the day. Everything what she did. Asked me advice. And vice versa for me. It was an insane period. Do I finally feel love? We went already to an ero expo as vip, did an fully naked photo shoot together, participated again in an casting. But this time we were not allowed to do foreplay(she watched and didn’t participate in the act). And it was way too hot. She even complained to “Ashley more productions”. I was again disappointed after an awesome and stressful day. Because she was soo hot and beautiful, awesome, and I actually had an big stress of an discussion. Still. We kept growing and growing. I even gave her activity tips for her boyfriend. And I also helped her to create an adult website by asking WordPress support every answer she needed. Because I had premium. So I had 24/24 7/7 support of experts. I advised her in so many ways. Never pushed her. Then lockdown was there. This time I went to an gang bang from “Vlaanderen’s vuilste films”. It was not an casting. But it was an gangbang from their brand/label “gang bang nation”. This time I was over flooded by dicks, 4 horny girls begging to get fucked. Like wtf. Off course I had again no erection. Ok I walked in storm weather 10 km before I arrived. And it was last minute. But this should not effect me. It can’t be. I will succeed some day I thought. So it was again an experience. This time I saw “Nayomi sharp”again. I talked whole the time like a waterfall while she got fucked. I was next to her laying. While other men fucked her. Like, wtf was wrong with me Ahahaha. Nope. She could somehow appreciate my presence. And she remembered me directly from “Ashley more productions” on the ero expo. I received suddenly a blowjob from “miss lolly”. A famous gang bang slut. I didn’t knew her that time. I kept talking with nayomi. Suddenly the time was over. It was already 4 hours of fucking madness. And I was there like talking like I was just in class or something. No Michael! We are at the damn gang bang. Later that day I got an ride back from an guy. He told me a hard story which is not relevant to this story. But still. It was again an mindfuck and coincidence that I got in touch with such an person. It is like that my fate always pushes me to people with hard pasts. He got beaten up in nightlife in front of the security and police. Everybody was scared and in shock while he got beaten up by an gang that couldn’t stand him. He said something wrong. And suddenly his head became an football. He was in medical induced coma, and is damaged for whole his life. Like. Holy shit what a story and ending cliffhanger. Me off course already sharing everything with “suggey woogey”. It was my name that I gave her. I still loved her so much. But it was not possible. She told me that I actually should be lucky. Many guys see her one time. Or in their fantasies. I have her forever as a friend. I can write days. And in detail. But let’s skip a lot. End get to the point. In lockdown she became my best friend, my warmth, my distraction, my help to loneliness. Etc. I fucked her two times in an private gang bang, I studied every porn studio their movies. To visualize an upcoming casting. I bought the best product ever. An “man wand”. Basically the “magic wand” for males. It gives you the best forced orgasms, can test your stamina, your erection duration. Can improve your erection. And can actually give sometimes better blow jobs then any girl if it hits the right spot. So in short I trained the hell out of it. This time on masturbating. Multiple techniques, I needed to learn to enjoy time/to be in the moment, etc. My erections became so good that I actually didn’t need Viagra anymore. All thanks to Lina. We shared now already a lot in common. I didn’t go to hookers for 14 months. Because I wanted love. And actually we had suddenly feelings for each other. She stopped already with duo porn. Still does nude modeling, only fans, many vids, colabs for only masturbating or bdsm. So she took another turn. I was confused. 14 March 2021 I just wanted no more hookers. I wanted to chase an girlfriend. But yeah me and girls …Almost mission impossible you could say. Suddenly it turned out we became very deep best friends. But the love part was different. She has her job. She sees daily dick picks. And me. I just love her in the full package. I give her value, appreciation, etc. Still I really want to fuck her. But she advises me to still go to the hookers because it will not soon happen. She is scared about falling in love. The unknown. We both have an big sexual history. We both really don’t know love. She loves her job. Creating solo porn videos and doing some shoots as an adult model. I am just happy if she is happy.

But deeply inside our heart we both know that we actually have strong feelings if we see each other. I think that we are both scared. And that we both play it safe.

So in short. I had sexual trauma, worked on it, became vip In private escorts houses, met a girl on a porn set. We became best FRIENDS4LIFE. She stopped with duo porn. Still loves her job as solo porn actress/adult model. And I am dry for 15 months because of her. She never asked for this. But it is my fate telling me to stay positive. And things will change or come out of nowhere. Will I ever experience damn love? I don’t fucking know. In nightlife I come for dancing, in my sport I am focused and disciplined. And every week I am just crazy active or ko in bed. Still I search balance. And we have a very special bound. We know everything from each other. She understands me. I understand her. No secrets for each other. And I still want to fuck her😭🤦🏼‍♂️.

Anyways. Fuck or not. I can’t stay a-sexual. I got noticed already by multiple porn producers/directors. They asked me multiple times to participate in an movie. I just skipped, ignored. Because I just wanted Lina. But in 2023 I probably will do it. Because it just fits in my lifestyle. Because I just love sex. Especially the dirty wet slutty faces that beg for cum. Pardon me. My adhd is already taking control Ahahaha. I just go crazy horny from such a girls. It is maybe strange but I never experienced an normal girlfriend. And knew only the way of redlight district and private escorts houses…

So yeah. I have my desires, my hormones start to explode. 15 months no sex. Ok. I have a Netflix of porn only of Lina. Because it is all what I needed to survive lockdowns Ahahaha. I never watched other porn since I met Lina. It is really cool to have an crush that is actually a pornstar Ahahaha. No comments. Whatever. I can’t stay dry forever. And videos are just an temporary solution. It is one of my big passions. I am just disciplined. But once a girl asks me to fuck her like a toy. Please don’t ask me that twice. Ahahaha. My adhd mind goes trough the roof. Woop woop. I respect every girl. Never ask sex to non hookers. Never chase or date. Lina is an exception. But boy. Yeah girls are an wonderful thing. The moan of a girls orgasm never gets old RAAAAAH.

NEVER GIVE UP!